Archive for ‘December, 2012’

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as a new year approaches we spend time reflecting on the year past and with hope the next year will be better than the last.  for me, 2012 was a year of change.  change that brought excitement in my life, change that brought sorrow.  I don’t look back on 2012 with regrets, instead I remember the joy,cry through the pain and look forward to the many new changes 2013 will bring.

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satya is the word of the month at my yoga studio, the samarya center.  translated the word means “truthfulness” or “to be”.  as we discuss this word at the beginning of each class i understand it to mean finding truth in the moment.

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often i find that we live in our minds and when we do that we are not living truthfully.  our minds fill us with judgements and storytellling that come from our own life condition.  if we are feeling happy our mind is filled with happy stories and if we are feeling upset or sad our mind is coming from that feeling.  either way those thoughts may not be coming from truth.  truth is found in the moment, the “what is” or that feeling of “to be”.  what is going on around me right at that very moment.  i believe that is satya.

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so right now i am working on satya. as the new year has come to end so has some things in my life.  instead of letting my mind create fictional stories about these endings, i am working on truthfulness and being in the moment.  having appreciation and gratitude for 2012 is how I am moving on into 2013.

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leaving you with words that inspired me recently.  Happy New Year!

May you not spend too much time wondering why things had to end.  If you must wonder at all, please wonder about what awesome delight will come to fill this now empty space.  ~Karen Salmansohn

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Today was nothing more than enjoying time with family and a lovely gift from an awesome neighbor.  This time of year can seem overwhelming so I often find it is the simple pleasures that bring me the most enjoyment in life.

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This poem resonates so deeply with me.  Enjoy

 

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LOVE AFTER LOVE

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

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DSC_6693life has me on a roller coaster ride and it’s a bit crazy.  actually, i have created this roller coaster ride by making significant changes in my life in order to help me find “me”.  as someone said to me yesterday “you are already here, you just need to see that”.  I am trying to soak up what that actually means.  i realize that my happiness in life has always been dependent on an outside source or person and i want to change that.  happiness begins and ends with me.  i want to teach this to my kids now so they will have a strong sense of self and happiness as they get older.

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one of my biggest challenges is my photography and this blog.  i am at a loss when it comes to taking photos and when it comes to writing a blog post.  i don’t just pick up my camera and shoot, i do so with intent and it is that intent that i’ve seemed to have lost.  same goes with my writing.  when i sit down to make a blog entry i usually have something on my mind that i want to say.  i’m in a rut…i can’t seem to find my intent, my words…my story.  i look at these photos and see that i’ve lost it.  so, i took the photos as a way to break through this barrier i am feeling and i am writing this blog post to do the same.  i can sit back and feel defeated or i can push through it and may just find that something new will come out of this.  who knows what may lie on the other side.

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